but i knew exactly where i was...

how could i forget that i am home - with the boys! i really needed to change my attitude toward this forced sequestration that is our #stayathome mandate from the state. i do not want any of my friends, loved-ones, friends-of-loved-ones, family, or anyone else that i might run into to suffer loss from covid-19 - and i am doing my part not be a link in passing it off.

but now on to the 'meat' of this post...i have been struggling with productivity, stress, extrovert-withdrawal...also missing my family, girlfriend(more than she knows) and (believe it or not) the office. i am looking forward to being stuck in traffic on 35W - northbound in a few weeks when this time is over. as billy says below - 'as all things must surely have to end' - this time will too. i have faith, do you?

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muzzle - smashing pumpkins

i fear that i am ordinary just like everyone
to lie here and die among the sorrows
adrift among the days
for everything i ever said and everything i've ever done is gone and dead
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
my life has been extraordinary - blessed and cursed and won
time heals but i'm forever broken
by and by the way
have you ever heard the words i'm singing in these songs?
it's for the girl i've loved all along
can a taste of love be so wrong
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
and in my mind as i was floating
far above the clouds
some children laughed i'd fall for certain
for thinking that i'd last forever

but i knew exactly where i was
and i knew the meaning of it all
and i knew the distance to the sun
and i knew the echo that is love
and i knew the secrets in your spires
and i knew the emptiness of youth
and i knew the solitude of heart
and i knew the murmurs of the soul

and the world is drawn into your hands
and the world is etched upon your heart
and the world so hard to understand

is the world your can't live without
and i knew the silence of the world